FINAL FINAL FINAL

So, its my final paper for my final semester, brings an ending to my final week of my life as a student..Well, due to the high expectation of failing my previous paper, maybe i can be a student again but it would be an part time one..Re-sit for papers makes me shame of myself..

I never fail a subject since diploma, don count in st. anthony's results k..and it would be shame of me to fail a subject in my final semester of my degree..I dint want to fail, nobody wants to fail..but it's just too tough for students to memorize so many theories..Actually i prefer calculations questions, but in the exam, came out only one out of 3..The moment i read the 2nd question of the paper, i said in cantonese "this time vagina fall already la"..The questions is about beyond budgeting which i never read a thing about..Therefore, 33marks gone in the longkang..The paper restricts 2 hours answering time and it took me slightly more than an hour to finish the calculation questions (correct or not is another question). And i was stunned there for most of the remaining time figuring what bullshit should i write..I believe there are not many ppl that spot that question because its not a hot topic for budgeting..

So, pass or not depends on the marker..if i could bribe YOU, i wouldn't hesitate to do so..Chinese New Year is coming in less than a week but where is the mood?

Exams before celebrations

First exam, performance measurement...Kantoi

Next exam 22nd which is the strategy management..

Confession..

Exam is around the corner..And Chinese New Year is around the another corner..Gosh..i wish i have enough time to rest before expecting the new year..but times are damn packed for me this year and i feel so tired..There are few things that may majorly change my life in 2009.

First, i'm not excited because i'm graduating 4 days before CNY. I am no longer a student after that, which makes me headache because everything i spend on after that are at my own cost. Hell no, im not ready for it..I'm just 21years and 5 months old at the time i graduate..I'm young and energetic but i don't feel as exited when i graduated from high school. Maybe it's because that i have to bear the cost of living myself and would have to step into the new era of my life, which is the working life..I'll have to wear shirts and ties that make me sweat..But i know i'm ready after a vacation in Sabah (hopefully). Lol..

Secondly, I wouldnt have the semester break that i used to have. Not even a week..So, i swear that i would enjoy my life as much as possible during CNY and my vacation to Sabah..Those days, i see sheateng damn kesian, wake up at 630 in the morning and wait for LRT at 7 and its already packed..i feel like sleeping that time..Lepas kerja at 6 and what else? Traffic jam la..God if there is a choice for me, i would rather go back to high school and enjoy my life there..I would rather back to my college life, enjoying every seconds that i have.

Lesson of the day: Enjoy your life in every tick of the clock especially when you are still a young student, before u regret when you're too late to enjoy..Who knows what will happen tomorrow? Get a life if you don't have one..A meaningful life! Not a life that u spend 12 hours a day in a cybercafe..

Awful rainy january..

5th Jan. It was raining and i was rushing back to Serena's house after driving thru McD..The whole cup of coke poured on my carpet..Okay nvm..lets clean it after we're back back. However, things turned awful as we never expected..It's a story about Mrs. Ong again..

Mrs Ong once appeared here in this very blog in September 2008. Now in 2009, some bad things happened again that made tear flows and smile fades. It's not the first time but this time seems unavoidable because she gotcha me in front of her house. After she seeing me, she doesn't look happy and leaves. Serena quickly turned pale and has a lot of questions to answer when Mrs.Ong is back. We discussed about it, she is tired of hiding me though she is reluctant to see her mum sad. That was the biggest dilemma that makes us so miserable. However, when discussed about this topic, Mrs.Ong without the necessary consideration proposed that Serena can only choose one between her and me. Mrs.Ong even said that she wouldn't accept me as part of their family and wouldnt acknowledge her as her daughter if she married me. She further added that if you all wanted her to accept, that would be the day after she died. Mrs.Ong hinted that if she wanted to pakto, Serena would have to ask for her opinion and approval. I personally feel that this is total nonsense and disgraceful..

However, the questions lays on how could we protect the feeling of her mother that always object us while continuing being together? If we continue to hide, how many times can we cheat on them? How if they gotcha us the next time? What we gonna do when it happens? Lastly, the biggest question would be how long can we stay together under such circumstances? How strong can we be?